Thursday, January 5, 2012

On the second day... frustration

Plan One / Day Two

I am happy to report that no has yet had a near death experience...
and only one biting incident, but that involved tickling and did not break the skin.

However, I have gotten a few looks from my neighbors in regards to the noise from our home.
The code phrases are working well.

But someone, who is not me, snuck out and had a few puffs off an old butt.  He confessed later when I began dumping butts into the trash and a strangled gasp escaped his lips.  Did he really think I would keep those cigar butts forever?  The truth of his back sliding bubbled out in a gush of guilt.  Now the temptation is over.

Actually it has not been too bad.  Harder I think on the man than it has been on me.  I had time to wrap my brain around this.  He joined in spur of the moment. Jumped right on that band wagon and has had regrets.

I find it the most difficult to drive in the car alone and not smoke.  So I am avoiding the car. I think I will walk to places as much as possible for awhile anyway.

Another difficult place is the market where I used to buy my smokes.  That mental list you go through in your head.  Do I need bread?  Milk?  Smokes?  Wait... they have smokes here!  Walk away... walk away!  I have decided to take up speed shopping off of a written list.  No looking around.  No thinking!  Buy the list and go.

Today was my pay day, so I FED THE TRIP KITTY!  YAY! YAY! YAY!  The trip kitty really is making this easier for me.  Instead of feeding it daily, I have decided to feed it once a week.

With quitting smoking, my posts are becoming lamer.  Sorry about that.  Right now this is where my focus needs to be.  So posts will be short and likely a bit off for a week or two.  =:]


  1. Your posts are not lame. I am encouraged to hear how hard you are working on this important task. Please keep posting and keeping us up-to-date!!!

  2. laura b.- Thank you my supportive friend! Right now I am waiting for the day when I stop thinking about not smoking as well as smoking. When it simply is a fact of my life and not an activity I have to work at. Otherwise, we are both doing well I think.

  3. your almost half way there. it takes about 4 days for your brain to re-wire itself and learn to function without nicotine.

    you can do it!!!!

  4. billy pilgrim- Cool beans! Do you know if there is a difference between cigars and cigarettes? I'm just curious.

    I'm still feeling pretty good. Thanks for the support! =:] Much appreciated!!!!

  5. FOUR DAYS??????? Pahh, there speaks a non-smoker! I quit for 12 freakin' years before taking back to it, like a duck to water. Man, I never remembered it being so hard to quit the last time around. I truly feel your pain, and KNOW you will do it. The electronic ciggy did it for me - oh sure, I'm still hooked on the nicotine, but at least I don't have the tar, ash or stinky smoke to go with it (and it's painlessly cheap to maintain, too)!

    I'm thinking of you - good luck.

  6. Congrats on quitting!

    As for your illustration,

    check out "Ozymandias" by Percy Bysshe Shelley:

    "I met a traveler from an antique land
    Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
    Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
    Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
    And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command
    Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
    Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
    The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;
    And on the pedestal these words appear:
    “My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
    Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!”
    Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
    Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
    The lone and level sands stretch far away."

  7. Post away on this - we're here to support you. I think t's fantastic.

  8. Shrinky- Thank you for your understanding. Yes, I did the same thing. For over 16 years I did not smoke, then had a brain fart and began again... as if I had never stopped.
    Cold turkey is working for us so far. I think our watching out for each other, and our desire to have the money to visit the kids this summer is doing the trick. That and I have begun to convince myself that a heart attack or stroke is in the wings if I don't stop NOW. Paranoia is my friend. =:]

  9. dmarks- Thank you for your support!

    I have long loved that poem. Thank you for bringing it up. I had not thought of that when I saw this pic, but it is PERFECT! =:]

  10. secret agent woman- Thank you so much! You and all my bloggers have been here for me though so many adventures. This is a world that my children teased me as being my "unreality"... but in my very real reality, you have all been there to support me with my very real problems as well. As always, I am grateful!

  11. the shopping list plan sounds good. very sart of you to address each situation that is a temptation. you're setting yourself up for success. no sweat on the posts. we all take a journey through various trials and joys. thanks for sharing yours.