Friday, January 6, 2012

DELUSIONAL THINKING

I bet I could turn him to ash pretty fast!

Three days smoke free.
Hummmm....
Its pretty much like days with smoking
only less aroma and more boring.

The fact is that when you smoke,
there are things that keep your hands, mouth and mind busy.
Patting yourself down to find your smokes or lighter.
Looking for misplaced smokes and lighters.
Dumping and cleaning ashtrays.
No more than 3 butts in an ashtray are allowed
before it must be emptied and wiped clean.
The actual extraction and lighting up of smokes.
And the minutes spent in going to the store for smokes.
Tiny little bits of time that add up over the course of your day.

Not only have I gained money by not smoking...
I am gaining time...
but  mostly small bits of time that do not have much value alone.
I suppose I could switch to picking my nose in those moments...
but I'd rather not be known for this behavior.
Any other suggestions for tiny bits of time filler?

At night I have gained a restlessness.
Between weird, weird dreams
and periods of wide awake-ness in the middle of the night,
I am not getting much rest.
Not that I am getting up in the morning,
which might help after a day or two.
Rather, I flop around in the morning...
watching the tube in bed and dozing off and on
until I look at the clock and yell "Oh crap!"
because it is near or after noon.
I really need to get a grip on my days and nights again.

People have offered interesting suggestions.
One involved cutting a soda straw to cigarette length
and using it as if it was a smoke. 
Really? 
As if my mouth and lungs could not figure out this ruse!
I ended up chewing on this and drooling into
the straw, having to suck it back in or let it drip out.
Eeeewwww
Finally I just crammed it into my mouth and
chewed it up then spit it into the waste basket.

Suckers were suggested.
As a diabetic, this can mean two things;
getting sugar jitters or the runs.
Sugar free suckers are worse...
more than a few of these guarantee the runs.
Forget the sucker idea.

Besides, the point is to break the habit,
not to replace the habit.

Well, bitching aside...
it is day three smoke free.
That's something anyway.

10 comments:

  1. That's not just something, that's huge!

    Never was a smoker, so I can't give you advice on that specifically. But I'd consider not thinking of it as bits of time you have to fill with mindless activity. It's a gift - time to be more mindful, time to live in the moment.

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  2. secret agent woman- I knew you would come up with something worthwhile! That is a great idea... I am going to do exactly that. Thank you!

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  3. Yay!!!!!!! Keep it up and good luck. After 3 days the nicotine is out of your system and now it is just mental so be strong. Have a good weekend.

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  4. Mmmmm... drool straws.
    That last para is almost a haiku! You should do one at the end of every post.
    What's wrong with picking your nose? You can't pick your family but you can pick your nose.
    Pick fuzz off of clothing.
    Good for you though!

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  5. Mr Shife- OH I do hope you are right! I have no trouble with the mental part... because I am truly dedicated to this. I will have a wonderful weekend. I hope you Shifes do too!

    NoRegrets- Ha! I have never been good at haiku. Now give me a limerick and I'll do myself proud! Or not so proud, but I'll be able to do one. I think its the dirty mind. =;]

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  6. you got it beat! just remember that nicotine is a sneaky son of a bitch that never sleeps.

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  7. Three days is impressive. Congratulations and keep thinking of all that vacation money!

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  8. billy pilgrim- Roxy's got my back on that one. I can't move an inch from my bed without an escort and she would tell. But she also gives me a lot of support.

    Peggy- Hi! I'm thinking about it all the time. Yay! Thank you for your support here and on FB!

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  9. congrats on three days. good for you! as for an alternate activity i think secret agent woman is right on. it's time that is a gift. use it to pat yourself on the back or to breathe deeply and know it's good air you're sucking in. :)

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  10. Congratulations on sticking to your wonderful resolution!
    Please enjoy your extra time and remember to ponder that extra time that will surely be tacked on at the end!!!

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