Yep.
This is pretty much how I feel about wearing paper medical gowns.
( found here : http://www.wweek.com )
I do not know a single woman who says
"YAY!"
when its yearly physical time.
My turn rolled around today.
I have a new, new doc.
He truly reminds me of Mr. Bean.
They have the same eyes and smile.
(from wordpress.com / Mr. Bean's Holiday)
He walked into the exam room and ran into the door on the way in.
Last time I was there with Randy...
Doc lost his rolly stool out from under him and nearly hit the floor.
Being a klutz myself,
I find the quality endearing.
Donning the paper gown was a trip...
they have a tiny dressing room.
I kept thinking... so this is how Superman
felt changing in the phone booth.
Everything went well enough.
Good in fact.
I've lost 8 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks.
My BP was down.
He took away one medication because I no longer need it.
All my blood sugars and AC1 test are outstanding.
The healthy diet and cardio are doing their job.
He said he did not find any lumps.
Wah hoo!
I'm sure you don't want the gory details of the actual
exams.
But here are some strange things about the "visit".
( Visit... as if this is a pleasant experience. Ha!)
I have never seen a speculum with a headlight before!
Why do they wait so long to see you that you have time to work up a good
boob sweat?
I entertained the question...
Yikes! Is that a finger or a baseball bat?
Someone farted and it was NOT me!
I've never seen a nurse hurry out of a room so fast.
I think that was a sign of guilt.
The worst part over,
he allowed me to play Superman in the phone booth again
and regain my clothing
while he made a phone call.
This part is weird and serious.
He returns to tell me that he is sending me to an
Oncologist...
that's a cancer specialist.
My immediate reaction was to say
"But you said there were no lumps."
I remember my mother's Oncologist...
and losing her vividly.
Oncologist is a very scary word.
He quickly raised his hand and said no, no...
nothing wrong with my breasts, uterus or tired old ovaries...
but with my family history...
a preventative double mastectomy would be something to seriously consider.
They would of course do breast reconstruction.
He patted my hand and continued.
But we aren't there yet...
(to butchery and plastic fun bags)
What I need to do is go see the Oncologist and let him
map my genes.
Then have one of my sisters genes mapped...
both gene maps will be compared
and
IF I have a different map
I get to keep my own boobs.
If our genes match exactly...
I get to lose my old friends and get Barbie boobs.
I am unsure right now how I feel.
In a way...
avoiding cancer and getting a boob job sounds pretty good.
So does keeping my old gals since I am rather fond of the girls.
I guess its a win-win situation.
But it doesn't feel like one.
It feels creepy and weird.
I know I am being irreverent here.
This is how I deal with things that are scary for me.
No offense to any other person's experience with
breast cancer.
Much much better to laugh than the alternative.
Here is a serious question for you friends.
If this were you... or your wife...what would you do?
Would you do the gene testing and willingly give away your/ her breasts
if they found the bad gene?
Or would you wait and let cancer show up
before any surgery...
living blissfully oblivious until the cancer hammer fell?
Randy was already sleeping when I got home.
So other than talking with Doc Bean,
I haven't spoken to anyone about this.
I know what Randy will say anyway...
that this is my decision and he will support me on it.
If you are uncomfortable with answering that question...
that's cool...
I think I just needed to say this out loud.
Well, sort of anyway.