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Friday, January 6, 2012

DELUSIONAL THINKING

I bet I could turn him to ash pretty fast!

Three days smoke free.
Hummmm....
Its pretty much like days with smoking
only less aroma and more boring.

The fact is that when you smoke,
there are things that keep your hands, mouth and mind busy.
Patting yourself down to find your smokes or lighter.
Looking for misplaced smokes and lighters.
Dumping and cleaning ashtrays.
No more than 3 butts in an ashtray are allowed
before it must be emptied and wiped clean.
The actual extraction and lighting up of smokes.
And the minutes spent in going to the store for smokes.
Tiny little bits of time that add up over the course of your day.

Not only have I gained money by not smoking...
I am gaining time...
but  mostly small bits of time that do not have much value alone.
I suppose I could switch to picking my nose in those moments...
but I'd rather not be known for this behavior.
Any other suggestions for tiny bits of time filler?

At night I have gained a restlessness.
Between weird, weird dreams
and periods of wide awake-ness in the middle of the night,
I am not getting much rest.
Not that I am getting up in the morning,
which might help after a day or two.
Rather, I flop around in the morning...
watching the tube in bed and dozing off and on
until I look at the clock and yell "Oh crap!"
because it is near or after noon.
I really need to get a grip on my days and nights again.

People have offered interesting suggestions.
One involved cutting a soda straw to cigarette length
and using it as if it was a smoke. 
Really? 
As if my mouth and lungs could not figure out this ruse!
I ended up chewing on this and drooling into
the straw, having to suck it back in or let it drip out.
Eeeewwww
Finally I just crammed it into my mouth and
chewed it up then spit it into the waste basket.

Suckers were suggested.
As a diabetic, this can mean two things;
getting sugar jitters or the runs.
Sugar free suckers are worse...
more than a few of these guarantee the runs.
Forget the sucker idea.

Besides, the point is to break the habit,
not to replace the habit.

Well, bitching aside...
it is day three smoke free.
That's something anyway.